I was guided in towards the end of November of this year to do a spiritual cleansing. It was, I thought, to let go of old issues within. That was not an easy task, in it's self, because I wanted to go deep and let go of old issues that have had a negative influence on my life.

What happened was I came to realize that this was not just about letting go but ultimately about surrender. I have heard that phrase in the past. 'All you have to do is surrender,' and your life will change for the better. Really how hard could that be?

I thought I had surrendered a long time ago but I have come to realize that I only said the words. You know what I mean I am sure. It is what I would say my during morning ceremony, prayers or what ever you want call it. My teachings were always to ask for what I want and have the patience to wait for it. So I added on I surrender, and didn't think anymore about it. I had done what I was instructed to do.

After a while I realized that my life was just about the same as always. I was expecting 'CHANGE' and I didn't think much more about surrender. Oh I told others that I had surrendered and I thought I had. After all I said the words didn't I? So over time I would occasionally add the words 'I surrender' to start my day never really expecting much. I would say I surrender and then look for lighting to strike and I would be changed. It didn't happen, so I shrugged my shoulders and went on with my life doing the best I could.

I had a pretty good life. I had a roof over my head, food, clothing and friends. What more could I ask for? I thought about that a lot because I only wanted to ask for something that was truly important. After much time, thought and consideration I decided I wanted inner peace. So that is what I asked for.

Inner peace I thought, I was ready for inner peace after all I had studied under many healers, shaman, priest and holy men and women for many years. I asked and waited, asked and waited, asked and waited. How long would I have to wait?

I continued to ask for inner peace and to be free of torment. And saw no change. Then one morning in ceremony I was instructed to ask the man in the mirror if he surrendered? The answer was no. He only said the words, he had not truly humbled himself before the Creator.

It was my time to sit and bare my soul to the Creator. To truly surrender my will. I knew that the Creator would not abandon me at this time of need and I knew that I had faith without doubt so I let go and surrendered and my life changed and torment left.

I continue to surrender each morning simply to remind myself that I have no need to try and control my day. But to accept what is put on my path. Knowing that what ever it is only for today and I have the tools to deal with it.

Balance and Blessings,